I am the type who apears on the outside to have no problems.I am allways happy confident and arock for all my friends but,on the inside I have lots of pain all bottled up.for the first time I am going to open up perhaps it may do me some good.This is going too be straight from the heart At 24 I had everything I could ever wish for Two sports cars agood job as a manager of a building co I worked my way up to this position through hard graft I started with the company as a cleaner and worked my way up.Then one day I woke up and tried to open my eyes I could not see they were red roar and the light was burning my eyes.I went t the doctors he refered me to a spiecalist .I eventualy was told I had cancer.When I went home I told my partner it was caused by sinus problems I told so many people who were concered this story that I believed it my self.I knew that it wasnt going to beat me I started going to the gym getting myself fit I worked longer and harder putting money aside for my children and partner just in case.I worked 12 hrs + daily iwas on a mission.Some days I would get flair ups of the old red eye but I was winning.Then problems between me and my partner started to develop I would only see her in bed becouse of my long hours she started moaning about me taking money from our acount I thought it was the odd few quid I was drawing out here and thare.months went by we were allways argueing and distant from each ever becouse I was fed up of her moaning about a few poxy quid.I was beating old red eye and the amount of flare ups grew shorter.then one day I decided to check the acount I could not believe it some bastard had rinsed my acount.I was livid I went into the bank they were no help.When I reported it I started to recieve threats over the phone that if I went to the police they would kill my kids.Then old red eye started to win(to be continued)THIS is only scratching the surface.